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“You’re my addiction”


You’re my addiction, the one I can’t let go of no matter how much I want to. When I have you, it's like nothing else matters, and when I don't, I feel like I have nothing.

When we first met, life took on a different meaning. You made everything better, more bearable, and problems became less problematic. You were the only constant in my life, you were always there for me, or so I believed.

My cigarette, Everyone warned me that you’re not as good as you look, that you would be my downfall. But I never believed them. I was so attached to you that I was deaf and blind to see how you were changing me – bits by bits, piece by piece.

You turned me into a lazy, sick, and anxious person. I became less social and less socially desired. I was so unhappy and underachieving. You had me all to yourself, and I was too blind to see the damage you were doing to me.

When the doctor told me I had lung cancer, I couldn't believe you did this to me. I thought you had been there for me all these years, but the truth is you were stabbing me in the back. I realized that if there was someone to blame, it should be me. I was in denial all the time, when I was wheezing up a flight of stairs or coughing horribly. It’s silly how all these red flags didn't wake me up and I was so addicted to your toxic embrace.

So here I am, telling you it's over. It's time for me to break free from this toxic relationship, It's time for me to take my life back, to live without you. It won't be easy, but I know it's for the best.

Anonymous Smoker

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